A Spiritual Break through (recipe included!)

So I'm about to get all GO ME again... BUT HOLY COW.. I did it. I actually finished My book I was reading LIKE I SAID I WOULD. Restless: You were made for more. Bare with me though.....

This book.... was not only incredible, it was HEART CHANGING.... For the last year I've been feeling like who is God and why would he let US go through so much pain and suffering...its because he wants us to lean on him, rely on him to bring us where we need to be to share HIM.  Then I went through the phase where I was like okay seriously... there is soooo much more to this life i'm living then being a mom and wife. NOT that its not amazing because it totally is, I love it and wouldn't ever change that, but my heart felt the need to grow, and do/be more. As I wrapped up the book It hit me like a TON OF BRICKS. I'm exactly where God wants me to be in this very moment. And I know feel like I can hear him speaking to me what he wants from me. He NEEDS me to use MY story to show you his love, his promises, his forgiveness, and faithfulness.

I've known for a really long time... well since I had Madison, that I was destined to be apart of something HUGE. Well that HUGE is my family. I have THE LARGEST connection i've ever seen in the Down syndrome community! It blows my MIND how much support i've seen been given, the love thats shared and the joys and pain we experience. We are blessed beyond our knowledge to have these children that come into our lives and teach us more about life and love then anyone else could imagine. But to add to my family... I've been blessed with the amazing support of wounded warrior caregivers like myself who share the same heart ache as I do.  The struggles we live with daily caring for our husbands who came home with deep war wounds that changed everything about them, and us having to find our new normals constantly.

I've been given a gift of being vulnerable. I'm an open book you could ask me anything and I'd be beyond happy to share with you my life, even the most painful things to share. I've also been given a gift of being support, and encourager with the most positive outlooks on the situation. I've been given the gift of being a strong woman, who can tolerate a hefty amount of pain, stress, and chaos. I've been given the gift to be knowledgeable. I have EVERYONES medical history memorized. I've even been laughed at by medical professionals who THINK I'M THE NURSE/ and one time a DOCTOR.  And maybe someday I'll be a nurse like I've dreamed... but for now I'm filled with these gifts for a reason, and thats to be there for those who are feeling weak.. empty... needing help...people who seem to have lost themselves in life. which I have to , thats how I got here! And I want them to know there is more, and everything will be okay. It may not be what we want.. but it will be what he wants and what he wants YOU to do with it.

I somewhat recently went to a concert with my sister, and I broke down into tears later that night just begging and pleading with God to change me, or "fix" my husband and his pain, or take away the struggles of having a child with special needs. Things were so hard and so stressful I felt as though I needed to RUN, and just leave and get out of the mess of it all temporarily. It wouldn't have done any good I'd still be in pain if I let my thoughts become my reality. I cried THIS ISNT SUPPOSED TO BE THIS HARD. And it wasn't until I finished this book that I realized, Yes it is supposed to be this hard. Because Jesus was drawing me nearer to him, calling my name to come back and have the faith I did after seeing the good he did with the other trials I've faced.. we've faced.  I'm supposed to hurt so I can hurt with others. I'm supposed to heal so I can teach others to heal too! I'm supposed to hold my FAMILIES HAND and walk with them, and show them that GOD can do anything!  And to be real... Since that night I begged and cried for things to not be so hard... I came home refreshed, and things have been a lot easier a lot less painful, and a lot more growth has been done.

I'd like to say I'm a bible reading girl who knows what she's talking about. I absolutely do not. And I'm sure some church going friends might read this and think.. what is she talking about. BUT All I know is theres a path in front of me, thats opened wide up with the possibilities of support systems, and finding more to this life with jesus as my guide, that i'm just going with it, walk that way, and learn as I go. Jesus calling is what i'll use to guide myself through learning his word, and i'm open to suggestions, because I'm not sure your "supposed" to read it from pg.1- the end.  My heart if overflowing with excitement. To be more, do more, get more involved, and open up more without the fear of judgment.  So Honestly I don't even know if this makes sense... but I'm wanting it out here to show everyone, to tell everyone, and I want everyone to seriously read this book!!!!!!! I will be re-reading it FOR SURE.


Don't worry I wont leave you hanging... here's the recipe for the week!!!!!

3 chicken breast (browned)
1 cup balsami
garlic cloves
3 bell peppers
onions
2 medium sweet potatoes

Chunk the veggies and chicken (I browned mine before i tossed them in though!) all and let them marinate in the balsamic for a few hours. Slice and dice your sweet potatoes into long strips like fries, spray with Extra virgin olive oil, and toss them in the  oven at 450* for 45mins.   Once your veggies and chicken are on the kabobs then toss those in when there is about 15-20 mins left on the taters! Make sure they finish, enjoy with JUST MAYO chipotle Mayo.

Memories

Boy do I have a special for YOU today! I found a wicked old recipe I was never able to blog about because I didnt have one then! But now I can consume your brain with TAPIOCA. But the healthy kind! Yes... yes this is possible. So here is what you will need...

1cup coconut milk
1cup almond milk
A heaping 1/3 cup chia seeds
2tbsp honey
1tsp of vanilla extract

Shake all ingredients up, and let sit in the fridge! Tastes just like tapioca to me! A lot of people also call this chia seed pudding, the flavor and texture remind me of the better stuff!  your welcome! 

Tapioca has been a long time favorite of mine. Mostly because I remember how yummy it was whenever my dad made it. He always made it so good, and made sure we ate it while it nice and warm. Now my recipe isn't warm, and i've not tried it warmed, but I'm sure it would be delicious. It brings back some fun memories standing by my daddy and smiling hoping I get the first taste. Maybe one day, if i'm lucky, i can get him to make me some warm tapioca and we can sit and be grown ups and have talks about life together with a warm latte. Because that too brings me lots and lots of good memories with my daddy! :)

Here's a lil did you know for the moment. My recipe calls for the yummy and healthy chia seeds... yes I'm singing the dang song too. 

Chia seeds are an unprocessed, whole-grain food that can be absorbed by the body as seeds (unlike flaxseeds). One ounce (about 2 tablespoons) contains 139 calories, 4 grams of protein, 9 grams fat, 12 grams carbohydrates and 11 grams of fiber, plus vitamins and minerals.

so in case anyone's wondering, i'm headed into my 3rd week of Insanity Max 30! This week the soreness really hit me. especially yesterday. I ended up taking both Saturday and sunday as a rest day and plan on hitting it back hard tomorrow. Loving the results, love the meals, and love love love the way my body is feeling. Its amazing how much change can happen in just 3 short weeks. Mostly on the inside, but thats where the magic happens. I haven't felt this good since.... I dunno about a year ago before I started struggling with energy. 

So i'm sure some have not seen or heard the update. We are all moved in, just waiting (still) on the last of our furniture. I'm dying to decorate the walls, but I'll get more of a feel for what I want once everything here. I do know what I want my office to look like though. I'm day dreaming of a cherry blossom pink, with gold and glitter, and just a splash of turquoise! So very girl, so very me. I love this job that I do, and I feel its deserved to be in an environment that makes me happy. 

To close, i'm super happy to be home. My husband loves it here (which he said he would never live here in a million years!) and my family seems to be way happier with the new change. We're dealing with a few small things, but that comes with the territory of finding a new normal with such a complex family history.  But oddly, i'm ok with it, and I KNOW its all worth it and this is where i'm supposed to be.  

"its Beautiful that your heart doesn't beat fast about the same things my heart beats over."- Restless: you were made for MORE

New year, New Beginnings

We did it! We moved! There was a lot of bumps in the road and a lot of tears that were shed while waiting for things to move forward. BUT we're homeowners again, and we finally have a house filled with things, we now have a  fresh start! Happy New year! 

I haven't had much play time in the kitchen yet with recipes to make some extravagant meals that are to die for BUT I have been making some pretty amazing meals that are easy to prepare, healthy and they align with my goals with the new MAX 30 program i'm doing.  And of course I'm not missing a dose of dense nutrition!  I've fallen in love with the Vegan flavors recently. It seems to sit lighter in my stomach, and I get this energy afterwards that just makes my body feel blissful. If you have ever wanted to try it, i'm OVERFLOWING with samples of Vegan shakeology, so please let me know if you want a packet or three!  So whats pictured today is something SO simple, and I'll break it down for you.  I've got ONE purple container from the 21 day fix. There is one and a half red containers (eggs and bacon!). 1/4 of a blue which would be the feta cheese, and one green veggie container! Perfectly Portioned meals through out the day to keep me on tack for what my body needs to endure the intense 30 mins. Who said "clean eating" is boring?

In addition to my new fresh start I've also made a commitment to myself. I've promised I would read ONE book a month to help better myself. I used to say I HATE READING. But I'm being very picky with the choices of books, and i'm actually enjoying the First book. Restless: You were made for more.  VERY powerful. Very hard at the point i'm at right now because we're talking about suffering, and pain that we've been through. I've had a fair share of some traumatic events in my life, as have others, so this isn't a poor me, or my life is harder than yours paragraph. As I keep reading though, my heart aches to share it all with everyone or anyone who wants to listen. If I can help change their life, or encourage and support someone through a journey of their own my year would be MADE. Being a coach, and woman who has a heart to help people  would be overflowing with purpose. I will continue to start sharing more of me with you, if you would like!? :) 

 ANYWAYS....... sheesh getting emotional in there!

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Happy SUNDAY!